- no help with kids during dinner
- no help with dishes
- DARED to complain about the mess in the house, bathtub rings, dirty stovetops.....
- put one of the kids to sleep (at least that, right?)
- poor at discipline, his specialty was making empty threats
- never picked up one ADHD parenting book
- refused to deal with school stuff and left everything up to me
- rarely bought anything for himself
- was quiet all the time, we didn't talk much
- tuned me out when I tried to talk to him about parenting techniques or anything else
- eats dinner right next to Logan and encourages him to eat his food
- puts both kids to bed while I relax and take time to eat my dinner and wash the dishes (in peace)
- bought a copy of The Explosive Child and read it
- agreed to buy Kirk Martin CDs and has listened to them more than me
- talks to me more
- doesn't get mad when I lose things
- finally bought himself some new clothes
- gives me parenting advice - can you believe that?
- makes a spreadsheet how to react to different bad behaviors so that we can be on the same page when we deal with Logan - yes, it's really true, there is no typo
- made a shopping list for a pending trip to BJ's! unprecendented, unprecendented!
- looked at a new restaurant that opened near his father's apartment and said we should leave the kids with his father and go have brunch there (I think I fell to the ground)
But I kept badgering him because I really wanted to know. Maybe I could find out some secret recipe for spouse-improvement and share it with you all. However, he just basically told me that he realized that he was not responsible for my actions (like losing everything) and that he was only responsible for his own actions. Then he started to change the way he did things. Kirk Martin advises the same thing in his marriage CDs but Kai made these changes way before we bought them.
I guess I've been doing the same thing in a way. I've started this blog. I've bought myself a few things. I wash my face in the morning now and even try to wear makeup everyday. I use the dishwasher more often and without guilt. I've also gotten more serious about getting help for my anxiety. Furthermore, I've been thinking about the future of my career. This includes daring to let my life revolve me and not my kids. I know I'm not there yet but the idea still lives on in my head. I can do this. I know I can.
For the record, Kai and I don't have the perfect marriage. However, I'm really proud of him these days. Rather than being chicken and not rocking the boat, I tried to reinforce the improvement by telling him that I see the changes he's making and that I appreciate them. I said it verbally and I also said it via email. You could say that I'm using ABA on my husband, I think you'd be right (But it's all out of love.) I hope it works because he's been really great these days!
Picture: It's a little hard to see but it's a spreadsheet outlining how we are supposed to handle certain situations in accordance with the approach used in Explosive Child. This was his idea and he made this all by himself. I was floored.